Although this is probably not the case, it begins to feel a bit more personal when she says she doesn't have time for one-on-one, and yet there is T. Just her and T. Havin' a little one-on-one time. Yesterday she said she would come get me in half an hour so we could talk, but she never showed up, and then made out like I should have known all along she wouldn't come. Well actually, miss, I usually expect people to show up when they say they will unless they tell me ahead of time that they are unable to come.
I'm sitting around crying all day because I'm facing more anxiety, depression, anger, and hopelessness than I can deal with alone, but se tells me she has no time for me. Why not? She clearly has time for the others. That's what makes it feel like she's avoiding me or personally attacking me, because she's with other people in her office all the time but she dissmisses me.
So I'll just continue to sit here and continue to cry. Their plans for college are more important than my plans for . . . I shouldn't finish that sentence in case someone sticks me in the loony bit again. Use your imagination.
I am completely irrational. I'm a stupid fucking loser.
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