I deleted my tumblr a few days ago. I was posting nothing but thinspiration on it, and I know how toxic that can be for people with eating disorders and issues with body image. I feel the need to start fresh. I wish I had a new blog engine. I wish I knew how to set up my own website. I'll most likely just stay here though, since I've already got this blog set up, and I enjoy writing. Why change, right?
I suppose this is a reflection upon my frustration with life in general, lately. I'm in a new city trying to change my lifestyle for the better, but I am still depressed. One thing I am grateful for is the fact that I have a blank slate... Very few people here know who I am. I can make new friends, if I like, but I really don't intend to put down any lasting roots here, except my deep roots in the church. I'll only be in this city for two years, so I see it as more of a stepping stone. I don't want to settle here. It is just the next phase in the process of further education.
The future is terrifying. I am constantly trying to better myself in order to improve my future, soften it a little.
I'm still scared.
I'm still depressed.
I am still unsure.
I need help.
I need to get my shit together.
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